Rainy weekend in NL

I'm sitting in CBS, NL, where I've been helping pick the 2009 Canada Games NL baseball team. There is me and two other coaches - head coach Billy and coach Chris. We had a solid practice last night and then a 'ok' inter-squad game this morning. Now I have the afternoon to myself - not sure what I will do, maybe some homework.

The past week has been busy, not only school but Tracy's mom found out she has throat cancer. My heart went out to her and her family. I felt terrible that I couldn't be there for Tracy. We 'Skype' each night and I could see how upset she was from her face and eyes. I wanted to fly through the screen and wrap my arms around her and let her cry. But I couldn't and so the best I could do was listen to her and tell her that I was here for her - anytime.

I worry about her, even more now that her mom is sick and going to go through a lot the next few months. I worry that she will have to take on more than she should - she already has so much going on. Before Tracy told me about her mom I spent quite a bit time thinking about us and my life. I recently went back through ll our initial emails and IMs. I could see how and when we fell for each other. It was like doing it again. So when I see her face and what going on with her, I feel that I should be there for her.

School is going well, very busy and intense. I'm glad I decided to go back and do B.Ed. I've met some great people and enjoying the experience. Looking forward to doing the course and then finishing it.

I'm also looking forward to mid-June when I see Tracy.