Rainy weekend in NL

I'm sitting in CBS, NL, where I've been helping pick the 2009 Canada Games NL baseball team. There is me and two other coaches - head coach Billy and coach Chris. We had a solid practice last night and then a 'ok' inter-squad game this morning. Now I have the afternoon to myself - not sure what I will do, maybe some homework.

The past week has been busy, not only school but Tracy's mom found out she has throat cancer. My heart went out to her and her family. I felt terrible that I couldn't be there for Tracy. We 'Skype' each night and I could see how upset she was from her face and eyes. I wanted to fly through the screen and wrap my arms around her and let her cry. But I couldn't and so the best I could do was listen to her and tell her that I was here for her - anytime.

I worry about her, even more now that her mom is sick and going to go through a lot the next few months. I worry that she will have to take on more than she should - she already has so much going on. Before Tracy told me about her mom I spent quite a bit time thinking about us and my life. I recently went back through ll our initial emails and IMs. I could see how and when we fell for each other. It was like doing it again. So when I see her face and what going on with her, I feel that I should be there for her.

School is going well, very busy and intense. I'm glad I decided to go back and do B.Ed. I've met some great people and enjoying the experience. Looking forward to doing the course and then finishing it.

I'm also looking forward to mid-June when I see Tracy.

Wolfville

Here I am. Back in Nova Scotia and back in school - Acadia University. Yesterday was my first day, and as I finished getting my i.d. card (for third time in my life) I walked away from the student union building and looked towards the BAC Building and felt like nothing had changed. That the six years that had passed where only a few days or months. Since first arriving in Wolfville in 1989, I've also liked this place. It's the small school atmosphere with big school pride.

When I first applied to go back to school my life was simple - just me. However that changed in January when I met and starting dating TracyLynn. The past weekend I had a lot of time to think - no internet or TV - and realized that I missed two things. Tracy being the first and my cat Boo the other. Sounds strange, but this is only the second time since I was three that there wasn't a pet - mainly a cat around. The last time was in when I returned to Acadia in 2001 and lived in residence - then that summer Boo appeared at 10 Summer Street.

As for Tracy, well I've never had to leave someone. Ideally, it would have been great if she could have moved here too, but it's not realistic. She has her kids, house, job . . . well her life in Corner Brook. So here I sit looking at the clock and realizing that I have to head to a orientation.